Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Responsibilities of a Blogger

For a couple of days now, I have been trying to think of something witty to post on this blog. I have tried to write and been sorely disappointed. This leads me to believe that I may not actually be witty, creative, charming, any of the things that I have deluded myself into believing I am. Before I started, I had lots of interesting things to say. Or did I? Realistically, any idiot can have a blog. I'm sure George W. Bush has one.

Maybe I should just aim to be better than him, what do you think?

Friday, November 24, 2006

Damn the Blog!

Can anyone help me actually put my links in the sidebar? I have tried their way of doing it and have tried republishing and it still doesn't take. HELP ME!!! I am trapped in the Blog!!!!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

The Best Line I Heard Today

Mike said to me

"I want to be better than everyone. That's okay isn't it?"

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

The Looming Quater Life Crisis

I just finished reading one of my very dear friends blogs on not knowing what you want to do and feeling incomplete in life, even when things are going exceptionally well. I totally get it. And as I was reading that and also feeling lost and confused, I began to wonder something. Are you supposed to feel this way in the year before you turn thirty? I have just turned 29 as most of you know and it seems like there is some societal countdown of "well you're almost 30, better do something incredibly significant with your life". It feels like you are supposed to be totally ashamed of yourself if haven't become rich, stable, married, had 2.5 children and moved into suburbia by the time you hit the big 3-0.

For those of you I haven't actually had a chance to share the good news with yet, my boyfriend Mike proposed to me 2 weeks ago. My answer, and he can verify this, was "okay, no rush right?". It took me 29 years to get engaged, who knows how long it'll take to get married. And if one more person says, so when's the big day, I may scream. Can't they just be happy that we have made a committment to each other to be together forever, and that we are in love? I'm thrilled to be in love. I'm thrilled to be engaged. I have no freakin' clue what I want to do with the rest of my life! WHAT'S THE RUSH!!!!!!

I also no longer work at the theatre. I'm not currently doing any shows or performing in any way. I hate it. I have wanted nothing more than to be in theatre for so long, not being part of any kind of theatre in any way is heartwrenching. And I can't think of anything that I want to do besides be in theatre. Suck, suck, suck.

But I am tired of apologizing for not being a Stepford wife and rushing into suburbian oblivion. So life isn't exactly the way I thought it would be. What does it matter? I actually want to do things with my life and enjoy myself. Why settle so early? Do you actually gain anything doing everything you're supposed to at all times? Yeah, boredom.

To my dear friend, I totally know how you feel. With obligation after obligation looming upon us in our society, it's so easy to fall into the trap of "I should be this, I should be that". It sucks. And why does it only come at 30? Twenty was much less filled with trepidation. 25 was less stressful. It's just thirty, I guess.

Monday, November 20, 2006

Writing the dreaded cover letter....

So, since I am no longer a Citadel employee, I have decided to broaden my horizons and apply for some other jobs. I am no stranger to applying for jobs, keep in mind. For some reason though, I AM a stranger to the world of writing cover letters. How do you beg for a job when you don't want to sound like you're begging for a job? How do you know if they're any good? And now I'm faced with this daunting test yet again.

Now, I don't have to be applying for other jobs, I do have a job that I will be full time at come next week. But really, do I strike any of you as the accounting clerk type? Be honest now.... I just don't think it's a long term kind of thing for me. I don't mind it, that's for sure. It's pretty good. But if I know that I'm capable of much much more.

How do I convey the wonder that is me into a cover letter?

I sure don't know.

I'll keep you posted.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

My First (New) Post

Okay, this is my first post of my new blog. Everyone else seems to have Myspace, but I will go against the grain and use Blogger. Not much to say right now. Very tired, still confused about many things, but happy at the same time. Maybe it's not real happiness about the Citadel. Probably mostly anger masquerading as such. Who knows? It's gonna be a ride though. Gonna sleep now.